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feliz cumpleanos!

hiya. long time again.
tomorrow i'm turning 29. i am not upset, nor super excited, about this. it just is. however, 30 seems like it should be a bigger deal, and as such, i am viewing 29 as a platform for bigger things. i talk a lot about how i need to change many things in my life, this is true, and i am not sure why i think that turning 3o will make me actually do that now, but regardless, i have decided that i will make some birthday-type plans for making some positive changes.

i've talked a lot before about wanting/needing to lose weight. still this is one of the most important factors in my life, i wish it wasn't but it dominates many of my thoughts and controls some of my actions. so since i last wrote, i am 20 lbs lighter (still with a ways to go), but i want to lose 50 lbs before I turn 30. it's going slowly, but it is really important to me.

in the next couple of weeks i will also be moving out of my current place (living with a friend in her house) into my own place. i am sooo excited about this, as I have never lived by myself before! this may seem pathetic, but i am finally at the point in my life where i am ready for this. i am craving having my own space, my own things (and no more passive aggressive roomates!) and just.. me. I am slightly afraid that living on my own will only add to the hermit-like tendancies that i am often prone too, but i'll cross that bridge..

sometimes i wonder if i shouldn't have done more/have more at this point in my life, but i don't know what that more would look like. traveled more, not be so financially unstable perhaps. i know that 'more' is not married or children, at least at this point in my life. i have to remind myslef that i've done some really big things this year, like start my own company, and that taking it easy, staying closer to home and watching the money situation, is probably a really good move for me this year. its tough sometimes, when all i want to do is take off and travel and not deal with many of the day to day things though. gotta keep looking forward...
so. happy birthday to me!

8:58 p.m. - 2009-09-01

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